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This Is What Fear Sounds Like

by Robbie Brown

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1.
INSOMNIA Instrumental LIKE IT'S THE LAST TIME And I don't doubt the existence of a light at the end But is the tunnel worth crawling through, all the time that we spend All we fought for All allegiances we've sworn They may mean nothing anymore So now let's love, like it's the last time And bleed true blood, like it's the last time 'Cause it truly well may be And when the pen starts to extend into a sword All of the bare necessities become a reward Let's prescribe monetary value to life And then wonder why our nation don't seem alright All we've worked for All the progress from before Is it really valid anymore We've gotta rebuild, like it's the last time We must be direct, and ditch the political pantomime We need to love, like it's the last time And bleed true blood, like it's the last time 'Cause it truly well may be [Guitar solo]
2.
I'm drowning in the sea of my psyche How far they fall, the ones who felt mighty
3.
The Roaring Twenties have returned! That's right, the Roaring Twenties: complete with market bubbles popping, persecution of coping mechanisms, and even a... PLAGUE! We are not ready, we are not evolved There are no more issues... we're equipped to solve Until our collective... can begin to converge And agree that peer pressure from the dead is our greatest scourge The calendar speeds on by, but we don't observe the velocity We find comfort in atrocity Our structures are built around... a question that stifles our lives Who is easiest to just let die? If you're feeling uncomfortable, if you're feeling disturbed The apparatus is working then, it means you have observed We're tired but far from dead There's no time left to rest The calendar races past, but we'd rather stay behind It's pointless that we observe time Our lives now revolve around... which hivemind to suffocate in Where evidence becomes a sin We are not ready, we are not evolved There are no more issues... we're equipped to solve We are not ready, we are not involved... In assisting each other, we would sooner dissolve We're tired but far from dead (we're far from dead) There's no time left to rest (we cannot rest) We're lemmings on the track, and we'll be shot in our backs If we recommence the cycle of rehash We're tired but far from dead (we are far from DEAD!)
4.
In the Water 02:55
Your feelings are not facts And your opinion does not obsolete concrete evidence If you can't peacefully react To a viewpoint that conflicts with yours, you're drowning in arrogance I see you there in the water, you keep on pushing away It contradicts with your honour in getting help to escape If you are in control You shouldn't flail around so much, it's wasting your energy You need to get to shore 'Cause it's too early yet to say your antics net you an effigy Courage alone is not legacy Natural selection will punish density I see you there in the water, you keep on pushing away To take my hand's to take orders, it's always bad to obey But I'm not abandoning you in the water, I have the luxury to wait For you to decide if your code of honour is worth more than an escape [Guitar solo]
5.
Hope 03:03
Dreams, they were bigger than you or me All the things I wanted to be Staring back into my soul and I can tell you what they see Just a mess, you know the rest, always looking to be the best And I believed that I could seize the day with powers in my chest Love and a beating heart Not knowing where to start All this time I'm thinking if I wait enough I'll find my part in something better than this, so many boats I missed There's just one on the horizon but this trip I must re sist I'm back in a corner crying How long can I keep lying "Oh nothing's wrong, no I'm just fine" The truth is I can never find the words to put it right, tell me why I should try You know I lack the understanding to describe it to define it I just want your love, shower me from above Trust when I tell you Simply keeping me around will be enough to give me what I need To fight with this disease Yeah, I'll survive if you can stand here with me What good is hope? (nothing gets done without doing) What good are dreams? (I won't let the fear consume me) Dreams, pulling you apart at the seams Even fool's gold shines and gleams Throw away naivete and living's softer than it seems Just a mess, I must confess I don't think I'll pass the test But I will take it and I know I'll make it through the stress True as my beating heart, oh this is just the start Thought I was dying but there's much left to be done I'll play my part in this broken symphony This ain't the last of me And I'll survive if you can stand here with me What good is hope? (nothing gets done without doing) What good are dreams? (I won't let the fear consume me) Do you have hope? (you gotta push it all to get it moving) Live out your dreams (I'm never letting of what is true to me)
6.
LiSTiN 02:19
There is nothing peaceful in your protest A weapon defeats that very point Now that we have heard your shaky pretext Please give us a chance to use our voice If human lives meant a thing to you It would be much harder to ignore the truth It should not require this affecting you To understand that we just might be struck and doomed "Well only three percent have died" Then tell me which three percent of your loved ones you won't miss Tag them on your Facebook wall "That's a horrible thing to decide" Then don't assume it will never come to this It's bigger than your run-down mall If human lives meant a thing to you It would be much harder to ignore the truth It should not require this affecting you To understand that we could be defeated soon Listen Listen LiSTiN There is nothing peaceful in your protest A weapon defeats that very point Now that we have heard your shaky pretext You gotta give us a chance to use our voice If human lives meant a thing to you It would be much harder to ignore the truth It should not require this affecting you To understand that we could be defeated soon If human lives meant a thing to you It would be much harder to ignore the truth It should not require this affecting you To understand that we just might be fucking doomed LiSTiN LiSTiN Since when was it spelled with two Is?
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PRESSURE MOUNTING Instrumental A REEVALUATION OF FEELINGS This is what fear sounds like! I'm holding out, I'm holding back I wanna know why everything fades to black I'm holding out, I'm holding all my screaming back Don't know if I am still alive I'm waiting for a sign of soul to arrive Am I alive, so temporary and contrived As ocean spray I'll fly away I'm holding out, I'm holding back And I don't know how much more weight I can stack 'Til I give out, But still I hold the screaming back As night takes day I'll melt away In rare moments of clarity I see my habits get the best of me The tidal rivers flowing from my eyes Blades of sorrow cut me down to size This can't be all, this can't be all, this can't be all I'm meant to be Reality decays The world's been set ablaze As night kills day I'll burn away I don't know why I let it go this far But there's still time to make it, even if it's past the stars
8.
[Synth solo] Why won't it end, the burden in my chest I still pretend there's no ringing in my head Unroll the sleeves on every shirt Keep control, can't afford to disconcert Death spiral spinning, my plane is falling fast Altitude dropping, do you hear my broadcast "Mayday, mayday!" I try to shout it out I only stare at the ceiling, taken captive by feelings No ejector seat could jettison me now I only stare at the ceiling, barely breathing here Flaws are out of sight With a veneer of fabric and fake smiles It's not enough to right the aircraft now You call my bluff, and tears crash to the ground There's no soft landing, no sugarcoating this Disaster's advancing but you look away in bliss And in the wreckage, my eyes are all they found They only stare at the ceiling, drowning in feelings And only at this point does anyone ask how I only stare at the ceiling, waiting to be released Waiting to be released [Synth solo]
9.
P01NTNEM0 03:01
Everything I know is drained Lost in the sea of my psyche In vast expanses I'm contained Doldrums are holding me tightly Vigor fading day by day No one can read my distress signal Paddling forth in search of waves But all the waters here are fickle
10.
In Time 04:06
Staying awake has diminishing returns these days If I'm not at a standstill I'm certainly crawling sideways Hopping from one fantasy world into the next 'Cause I've lost my love for reality and all its vile defects Now my dreams are no escape, they always escalate Any doubt or melancholy locked away Years fold into weeks, seconds stretch into days I fall asleep beneath the sun's bright rays If I could freeze in time, I would take the chance And I would redefine my mind in that instant If I could keep the future from coming, yes I would I would freeze in time, with no more damage done Plug a hole up and the leak finds five more cracks to breach Some of these spots I cannot reach Analgesic headaches uphold the cycle of pain But no matter the words I use, I can't seem to explain And still I run far away as I can Maybe long away I'll find who I am But in the meantime here, I need a plan If I could freeze in time, I would take the chance And I'll search low and high for all that went missing If I can change in time, I must, but am I strong enough To try and draw the line, right here, right now [Synth solo] Freeze in time Change in time Can I stop in time
11.
Led through the darkest tunnel by a gang of reality show senators Who either forgot or don't care that we're not recast-able characters If you kill us off in Season 2020, you can't write us back in The plot has no room left for reentry, and the laugh track's missing Is there life off the set, or are we already dead? Change the channel, turn it off Can't you feel it, something's wrong We're divided, some are mobilizing Find the station playing love Can't you see what we've become Life together is now polarizing If we throw our hands up, say bitterness is normal, then we're already doomed The flame of hate could burn eternal if we don't confront it soon Are we already late, will blasts of war detonate? Countless people screaming out Never progress, just more doubts Everyone is in ideological stupor Breaking hearts and breaking news Light the candles or light the fuse Everybody has a plan for our future No, I don't have the answers But anyone can diagnose the cancer It's spread so far I can't believe we still function It hurts to keep the faith To look out for a brighter day Even at the brink of destruction, we need to make sure hope survives Don't turn off life support, don't let the truth distort Don't turn off life support (we record a heartbeat) Got just one wish, that when I die It's with no regrets, no matter failure or success Did I resist the fear inside Was it from the heart, will I be missed when I depart?
12.
There is a break in the clouds The light finds its way to me and I burn from the inside No way to put the blazes out And ash piles up at my feet, all the aid was my demise When will anybody learn If helping hands are misguided, they have a chance to burn There is so much more at play Than feelings and reactions, it isn't something you wish away Not like a wish is all she needs They scour for her serotonin, nothing changes how she feels Her friends had thought she faked it all So no one can understand why she's put up all these walls Far too much has been assumed If helping hands are misguided, they can deepen the wounds And sometimes it comes to pass That a helping hand pulls the trigger, and we're left longing for the past
13.
We're tired but far from dead We're tired but far from dead We're tired but far from dead We're tired...
14.
WHAT DOES IT MATTER What does it matter what the future has in store If we don't care right now, we are not united anymore Preventable death and insatiable anger, fingers pointing from all sides In bipartisan lands, what does it matter who tells the truth, who only lies This can't be right We've lost our minds What does it matter all the wonders from the past If the mark we leave right now only stands in stark contrast Or will future classrooms try to omit our vile cast Insatiable anger and infinite rancor, sociopathic, bloodshot eyes They inhabit the newsreel, so what does it matter if we're silent or if we cry This can't be right What's going on, humankind? Why's everything a fight? We've lost our minds We've lost our minds LEMMINGS ON THE TRACK Can we stop short this time Ditch the political pantomime Or do we follow old footsteps And run straight off the edge [Guitar solo] No! Lemmings on the track Shoot them in the back Lemmings on the track

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TRIGGER WARNING: lyrical content relating to mental illness, self-harm, and suicide

In the summer of 2020, I was tired. Not sleepy, mind you. I had grown weary of so many things that will not go away. The way mental illness is maligned, our reliance on having some kind of enemy to motivate ourselves to do anything as a collective, our society's desire to leave people behind... what's all of this mean-spirited energy for? I didn't have faith in domestic peacetime lasting, nor did I have faith in many people I knew anymore. Looking back on this album, I can indeed say THIS IS WHAT FEAR SOUNDS LIKE.

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released August 28, 2020

Robbie Brown - lyrics, composition, production, instruments, and vocals

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Robbie Brown Lansing, Michigan

I write music about the human condition, driven by soundscapes inspired from a broad range of metal, rock, and R&B.

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